*********************My friends who got pregnant around the time I was pregnant before are getting there Big Ultrasounds these days, finding out their genders, etc. I was writing out some of the highlighted weeks in my calendar today and I realized that for my old due date, I will be 28 weeks pregnant with Small Fry, past the point of knowing the gender and moving on to actually getting closer to having a baby, even though it will be 3 months later than I planned.
It's never completely over, when you lose a baby - even when you lose one early on. I have to declare this as my 3rd pregnancy for all my paperwork at the OB/GYN. In some ways, I'm glad that I need to remember, and in some ways, I wish I could forget. I wish I could forget because it covers every moment of THIS pregnancy. Every time my symptoms are different from when I was pregnant with Fuss, I start to wonder and worry. I can't just sit back and relax completely, because there is always that worry that something bad could happen.