Sleepy and more about my lactation

I tried to write this last night, but I was having computer problems.

I am so tired. I can't seem to go to sleep before 11 (or 12, sometimes) and then the baby starts to wake up at 12:30 for paci pops that range from 2-8 per night. Oh. My. Goodness. I want this to end. He doesn't cry, he moans. And sometimes he moans in the sleep with the paci still in his mouth and when he does that I don't know what to do and there is nothing I CAN do except to wake him up and feed him to settle him down (because if I wake him all the way he gets hysterical.)

Now, I don't remember what else I was going to say. I'm tired and my headaches are starting to come regular again. Whether that is because of a lot of disturbed sleep or because I haven't taken my magnesium in awhile, I don't know. It's probably a combination.

To add to what I said yesterday about nursing my baby, I LOVE nursing him, not having to give him formula, and having a few minutes every few hours that I HAVE to sit down and just SIT. I am really psyched that I am more educated this time around and I am doing so much better and I'm feeling like I'm going to make it to a year (my goal). Half of me wants to continue on past the 12 month mark, half of me wants it over NOW. Actually, to be fair, it's more like 10% of me wants it to be over now. We shall see. But despite my Dr's discouragement, I am going to attempt to keep him off formula until at least 1 year.