Will You Be My Lorelai Gilmore?

So, all week I’ve been wondering if I’m pregnant, though technically it should be too early to show symptoms or be able to tell anything. I’m totally baffled by the information I’m finding regarding late ovulation. I ovulated on day 17, but recently I’ve been having very short cycles (26 days last month, 27 before that), so it doesn’t really allow for that full 10 DPO, now does it? If you don’t implant until 7-10 DPO, how is my baby supposed to implant if I start spotting on day 7 or 8?

I’ve had very tender breasts for about a week and my temps are significantly higher than they were last month, so I’ve been hoping. But last night after sex, I had a bit of pinkishness, so who knows? I feel like I have to tell myself that I could be pregnant in order to stick with the healthy habits (like no alcohol, eating veggies, exercise) but I also don’t want to get my hopes up too high. Last month I started spotting on day 25, which this month is tomorrow. Guess I might not have to worry about when I’m going to test at work (so Mr Moose won’t know right away).

I know we haven’t been “officially” trying for that long, but it’s still frustrating.

Gilmore Girls last night (“Will You Be My Lorelai Gilmore?” episode 7.16) made me tear up at the end of Lane’s shower (I told my mom that if I was on bed rest for my own shower, she was totally pushing my bed across the town square to get to it) when Lane asked Rory to be her “Lorelai Gilmore” as her mom had been for her.

Homemaker Meme (even though I'm only a part-time homemaker)

I picked this up from Arwen's blog.

Aprons (Y/N): Occasionally. I bought one for Mr Moose that says “Kiss the Cook” for our first Christmas together and we have a green one, but I don’t always remember to use them. When I’m making something splattery I try and use it, or if I’m dressed up.
Baking (Favorite thing to bake): Cookies. I love baking cookies. One year for Christmas I baked about 12 different kinds. Mr Moose loves my Cowboy Cookies best. I’m also famous for my Christmas Snickerdoodles.
Clothesline (Y/N): There are 2 that came with the house. The big one in the yard just gets in my way when I’m running after the dogs. The little one by the laundry room gets used occasionally for delicates, but that can get embarrassing when my dad comes over.
Donuts: As Arwen said, “whoever invented Krispy Kreme has my eternal devotion.” My mom used to make these killer cinnamon sugar donuts when I was little and I was determined to make them awhile back, but it never happened.
Every Day (One homemaking thing you do every day): Closest to every day probably has something to do with dishes, but I can’t say I do it EVERY day.
Freezer (Do you have a separate deep freeze?): Nope.
Garbage Disposal (Y/N): No. I wish we did sometimes, but our home inspector said it would screw with our plumbing if we installed one, so we’re without for good.
Handbook (What is your favorite homemaking resource?): My grandma. If I ever have a recipe emergency, I call her. She knows it all.
Ironing (Love it or hate it?): My dad owns a dry cleaner, so I get pressing done for free. Occasionally, I have to iron something for Mr Moose that we washed and he wants to wear, but it doesn’t come up that often.
Junk drawer (Y/N) (Where?): Unofficially. I have one in my dresser and my night stand.
Kitchen (Design and decorating): We have a small kitchen that is on the verge of being updated somewhat. We’re working on the how and when with my dad. My mom gave us her old dishwasher for Christmas and offered to help pay for installation, etc. We need new countertops, as the previous owners were very hard on them and the cabinets are ugly and the bottom ones are inefficient. I’d also love to get rid of the yellow tile backsplash.
Love (What is your favorite part of homemaking?): Cooking/entertaining. I love to put together a good meal including appetizers (I’m queen of appetizers) and desserts.
Mop (Y/N): Rarely. And I consider mopping to be done with the Swiffer Wet I bought when we moved in to our terrazzo/linoleum house.
Nylons: I rarely where them in general and never while doing housework.
Oven (Do you use the window or open the door to check?): Like Arwen, I use the window mostly now that I have one. Our apartment didn’t, which annoyed me having grown up with one.
Pizza (What do you put on yours?): I prefer pepperoni and mushrooms. I can’t stand onions or pineapple, but anything else I’m reasonably willing to pick off.
Quiet (What do you do during the day when you get a quiet moment?): Depending on the day, etc. I either read, nap or watch TV.
Recipe card box (Y/N): I own one, but it’s not overly organized. Mostly, we have books and I have a notebook with plastic sleeves that I tuck print outs, newspaper clippings, etc. which is my lifeline for receipes from others.
Style of house: No idea what “style” it is – probably a ranch. One story, vaulted ceilings. I love it, but I’m already worried about the space issues when we have kids (it’s a 2/1).
Tablecloths and napkins? I love them, but rarely get them out except for entertaining. I should use them more, since I have several sets of placemats and napkins that are casual. I have a couple of tablecloths, but only my Christmas one fits my current table.
Under the kitchen sink (Organized or toxic wasteland?): It’s pretty reasonable, really.
Vacuum (How many times per week?): Um, once per month, maybe? And that’s only to do bug treatments so the dogs don’t get eaten alive. But we don't have carpet, just rugs.
Wash (How many loads of laundry do you do in a week?): 2-3. I’m getting better about it. When we were at the apartment, we’d do everything all at once, together every other week or so at the laundry mat. Now I do approximately 2 loads on weekends and the occasional load during the week.
X's (Do you keep a daily list of things to do and cross them off?): Um, no.
Yard (Who does what?): It’s pretty much been just Mr Moose so far. We’re starting to plan our landscaping, so I want to do more. We just bought some plants over the weekend, so some day soon I’ll actually have to spend some time in the yard/garden.
Zzz's: I typically allow myself 8 hours, but lately, I haven’t done too well staying asleep when I’m supposed to, etc.

4 DPO?

According to my fertility Friend calculator, I ovulated 4 days ago. Later in my cycle (day 17) than I thought I was. I had only been taking temps up until the first rise - around days 12-15 - for awhile and then I'd quit for the month. When I continued last month, i got panicky because it went back down. I'm much higher now this month post day 17 and I seem to be staying there. Whew. At least I know I'm ovulating. Of course, that gives me about 9 days luteal phase if last month was my standard (26 days instead of 28 as I was pre-birth control). When do I test? At day 26? Or do I wait? I already have overly tender nipples, which is pretty abnormal for me. And my temp was very high (for me) this morning (but I slept in about an hour late, too - so who knows?) I'm allowing myself to dream a bit, but trying not to get too hopeful. But I'm being good and skipping the alcohol completely (we went to dinner last night and waitress kept trying to seel me on a martini - I didn't want to say I was pregnant, since I don't know, but kind wanted to to make her get the idea that I wasn't drinking even though Mr Moose got some wine).

I've got this great idea for how to tell Mr Moose I'm PG, but I want it to be a surprise and I know that when I test, he'll probably be there. I wonder if I could take the test at work instead of at home?

There's also this thing I've thought about - I want my sister around at the birth of my first baby. She can usually only come home (they live in Sweden) during the spring - so I would really prefer to get pregnant this summer, but I also don't want to wait. I'm so crazy. And it will be just as wonderful to have here here this spring if I'm already PG.

Keep your fingers crossed - I'm both skeptically optimistic and nervous.