Thursday, February 21, 2013

Meme - borrowed from April

My friend April did this meme the other day and I liked the questions (and anything to have something to write about...) so, here you go!

Do you have any strange phobias?
Strange? Not really. I used to have a fear of the dark (seriously, I was 14 before I got through it) but now I LOVE the dark, so that's not really applicable anymore. I periodically have the thought that terrifies the snot out of me that my husband might die and leave me a widow with young children, but I think every married woman worries about that at some point or another. When driving over tall/long bridges, I tend to start to think through each step that I'd do if I were to get hit and go over the edge of the bridge (especially when the kids are with me - I avoid the Skyway whenever possible if they are in the car. Or I prefer for another adult to be with me)

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
Clothes! Yes! I can't usually stand pants on my legs (they ride up around my knees) but I'm always wearing a top (t-shirt, tank, nightgown) and undies.

If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Trying to figure out when I can go back inside? Watching my kids play or "visiting" with my dad who smokes and is not allowed to smoke in my house.

Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? I'd probably have to say the Barenaked Ladies. My husband and I loved them in college and even went to an amazing New Year's concert by them a few years ago - probably the best concert I've ever been to.

Do you believe in karma? Karma? No. Do I think people reap what they sow? Yes, definitely!

Who is your celebrity crush? Matthew McConaughey. He is just. so. cute. And his voice...

What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? I HATE the sound of fabric or styrafoam or paper/cardboard rubbing up against something. Major pet peeve, actually. I LOVE the sound of my son's laugh.

Choose: East Coast or West Coast? I'm an east coaster and I've never made it further west than Colorado. I'd probably have to say East coast, simply because I'm more familiar with it.

What was the last book you read? I'm embarrassed to admit it was a trashy romance called Never Love a Highlander. It was pretty good, actually, but I don't typically read that type of book anymore. Before that I read Prairie Tale, the autobiography of Melissa Gilbert and it was great. (oh, I also read Good-night Moon to my son this morning)

Do you like the smell of gasoline? No, ew.

What was the last movie you saw? In the theater with kids, Brave. In the theater without kids, I can't remember. April said Skyfall and I saw that one, but I'm nearly positive I've seen one since then and for the life of me, I can't remember what movie. At home... The Princess and the Frog with the kids and The Blindside without them.

What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? Last spring I fell at home and broke my foot. The actual break was somewhat minor, but I did severe soft tissue damage to my toes and ankle and was laid up for awhile, had to go through PT, etc. Crutches SUCK.

What’s the last thing you purchased? Almond milk.

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?  no.

Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? A pink parisian pop cinch bag from Thirty-One, my daughter's Valentine from her daddy

What’s your favorite animal? If pressed, I'd say penguins. My husband and I can sit for a long time at the penguin exhibit at SeaWorld and just watch them. (my joy is dampened by now having seen Happy Feet). I also love the look of baby hedgehogs, but I've never seen one in person.

What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Dealing with my son who was up, screaming with another bad ear infection.

What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Most of the Glee music, We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift (sue me) and any of the first 5 or 6 tracks on The Fray's How To Save a Life album.

What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? to marry my husband

What’s the last song you listened to? SaraRose (a friend of my daughter's) singing "I'm a Missionary Helper". But since I'm guessing you're referring to on the radio... something by Pink.

What is your current desktop picture? Little Man as a baby sitting in his Bumbo with a HUGE smile on his face.

You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? I have no idea. Probably to be invisible.

You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? I really don't know. I'm going to go with my wedding ceremony because if I got to relive it again, I'd purposely make myself enjoy the moment a little more. As it was, I was so giddy and focused on the "when do we say I do?" part that I don't remember a lot of it!

 
You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? If my husband can come with me, I'd go to either New Orleans or Oregon wine country. If on my own, I'd go to visit my sister in GA (and while we're wishing, I'd wish that she had a closer airport to her dinky little town)

Monday, February 4, 2013

Daddy's boy

Wow. Been a long time. Oops.

So lately, Little Man has been all about his Daddy. Now, this isn't really a new thing, since he has always loved his Daddy, but right now, it's Daddy Daddy Daddy "no Mama." and that makes me really, really sad. He's been my Little Man for nearly 2 1/2 years now and he's always had a connection with me. But if there is even a chance Daddy is around - or when Daddy SHOULD be around (the other day, my husband had to do an overnight out of town so the next morning there was a lot of sadness when Daddy couldn't get him out of his bed in the morning) - I am NOT GOOD ENOUGH. Waking up from bed/naps, getting out of the car, kissing boo boos, bedtime it's "no Mama, DADDY."

I know that my husband has done nothing to push this. He's a good guy and he's an amazing father and kids just respond to him (even kids who aren't his own) and he has always had a good relationship with our children. But Fuss was his special baby from the get go - she bonded to him in a special way from the beginning (and she and I bonded, too, but there was something magical about them) and despite my reticence about having a son (boys scared me) Little Man and I had a THING from the beginning. We were connected.

Until now. Now I'm rejected. It started with him refusing to cuddle as much as he once did. He's a busy, growing boy, so I accepted that as simply just him growing up. But lately this Daddy-thing has really been bothering me.

He still hugs me and smiles at me and plays with me - when Daddy is at work.

I know it's normal for a boy to want to attention of their father. Heaven knows there are SOOOO many books on the subject (some even going to far as to say that a boy without a father can never feel as complete no matter what a mother does to try to fill that void, etc.) and I know it's a natural part of him growing up that he wants to company of a man/other boys instead of just his mama. But it still makes me sad.